unrequited love.

Boldly, I come before you

You see me, all of me

Every intricate detail, every flaw

Nothing is hidden from your sight

I'm sinking in vulnerability

Awaiting your judgement

Knowing what I deserve

What I've done, 

I cast my eyes downwards 

toward the floor

Waiting for justice to be served

I'm trembling before you now

You see straight through me

Your eyes pierce my very soul

I can barely breathe

in that very moment

My impending punishment 

hanging over me

I see you standing there

Your arms stretched out

In perfect protection, sacrificially,

You're body's been beaten, broken

Sweat pours from your brow

Blood streams down your side

The weight of MY sin bearing down

As You breathe your last

I can't stand the sight

I sink to the ground

My head in my hands

Knowing that it was me who deserved this

You took my place, gave your life

Being completely innocent

I'm frozen there

In awe of what's been done

Til someone reaches out

& helps me off the ground

I look up, to find you.

Staring, puzzled I think "why?"

"how can this be?"

My eyes are met with grace, compassion, & tenderness.

I melt at the sound of your voice,

"I did this for you, beloved,

Because you are mine & It is by the will of the Father that this has been accomplished."

You see the delicate state of my heart 

& even before I ask, you offer 

forgiveness, healing, peace.

Held in your arms

All the guilt, & pain, & fear melts away

In your presence I am made whole, Complete

I'm speechless at such mercy

Blown away by what you've done

I'm so undeserving,

so completely unworthy,

there's no way for this to be earned, reciprocated, returned,

This is unrequited love

& all your asking 

is for acceptance.

That I take this free gift

you've so generously bestowed

& let it wash over me,

make me new.

This is crazy,

this is love,

this is grace,

this is truth.

This is you,

& you're, forever, all I need.