worship in words

There is something so incredibly sacred about putting pen to paper, or I guess in my case most of the time, putting my fingers to a keyboard. There is no better way to express yourself, so freely, so openly, so completely. I don't write because I have to, or because I am getting paid to (ha! yeah, that'd be nice ;) but I write in order be free. To release my mind from it's constant state of chaos in which there is this whirlwind of thoughts, emotions and desires; all screaming different things, all wanting to be heard. So I sift through all of that madness and somehow manage to scrape up something that's halfway meaningful, if I'm lucky. Most of all though, even more than I intend to use my writing to inspire and/or encourage (which is a lot), I write to bring glory to God. In hopes of bringing a sweet smile to my Heavenly Father's face that seems to say "beloved daughter, in you I am well pleased." I need to hear that, and even more than just hearing, I need to believe it!

I've always struggled with finding my purpose in life, and for so long have wrongly felt that I really don't have much to offer. That I don't possess any real talents, not any that are worth sharing at least. God is revealing to me, however, through this blog and through my writing that that is so completely untrue. Those are just lies from the evil one because He has most certainly blessed me with plenty of assets, one of those being the gift of words. Whatever that means and whatever He is going to have me do with it, is beyond me at this point but regardless of all that, I am grateful for this gift.

Words can be so beautiful, painting astounding pictures in the mind as if the art of the soul. They hold such an immense amount of power and importance and need not be taken lightly. So despite my usual lack of confidence in this seemingly insignificant gift, it is indeed something. Not just any something, though but something remarkably special. More than just talent, God has granted me a great responsibility because with your words you have got to be extremely careful. You see your words, my words, have the ability to completely tear someone apart and sadly, sometimes without even realizing it; but they also posses the power of building someone up, of making their day, of totally lifting their spirits. It's easy sometimes to just let whatever's in your head come flying out of your mouth, without even thinking about it. That is so incredibly dangerous though and potentially, disastrous. Believe me, in doing so, I have gotten myself  into trouble more times than I'd like to admit (just ask dear husband;).

Having a gift as such requires a lot of purposeful thought processing and self control. Neither of which I have quite mastered yet, most likely because my pride has kept me from completely giving them over to God like I should. If I am being perfectly honest, it's because sometimes it feels good to fly off the handles. I mean it was most definitely not uncalled-for, and they asked for it. Right!? Wrong. I've heard it said that out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. Really!? Ouch. I sincerely hope that's not what's filling up my heart. Our words are the truest indicator, though, His word says so. Sounds to me like I need some open-heart surgery. You know, the spiritual kind.  So we're working on it, reigning in those negative thoughts that turn into rude comments because they are most definitely not benefiting any one who just might happen to be listening, let alone the one I'm speaking so harshly to. Bridling the tongue is not an easy task but if I chose to just "accept it" instead of letting God atone it, then my 'religion', everything I stand for, is considered worthless. 

So I'm challenged, to take my words and point them upwards, and use them to proclaim His name. What better a Being to talk about than the very One who thought up life itself. Who breathed into existence each and every living creature here on this Earth. The One who can do no wrong, who's way is completely flawless and who from Him every good and perfect thing is derived. Who's name is great and worthy to be praised throughout the universe and to the very end of the age. He is the essence of beauty, the epitome of grace, and the very reason we can be sure of this hope we have that's hidden deep within the depths of our hearts. There is not a single thing, no one, greater than He, there never has been, nor will there ever be after. He is the beginning and the end, the alpha and the omega, the Great I Am.  He is the Savior of our souls and yet at the same time our very best friend. He is the One who never leaves our side, who takes hold of our hand and guides us every step of the way. His majesty is unfathomable and deserves nothing less than our unceasing reverence and adoration. He alone is worthy of all glory, and honor, and power, forever, and ever. Amen.